xuetin: dead soon . life sucks
i wann to stop .
i dont wan me and renee and qishan crying .
renee and i had been crying alots these few times.
it really hurts .
i dont wan us to be so stressed up and so dulan..
i dont want to see every of my friends crying like that .
i seriously had never see renee cry until like that before .
we had been 5 years of friends lerhhs .
she was used to be so strong and everything .
and i seldom see her cry .
and nowadays, both of us has been crying like shit .
it was suppose to be a happy day today with meiling cheering us up, making us laugh, doing lame things and everything .
but it was screwed up .
i think we have to stop thinking about it for a short while, let everything cool down and talk another time .
i dont want to be like crying everyday .
i had enough .
i need the beach, i need qishan, i need renee, i need shy ying, i need to cry a hell out of me, i need to scream like shit .
i need somebody to talk to alot .
theres so many things happening recently .
it got all of us fucking stressed up .
i know almost everything out there .
i had heard and i had saw . i know whads happening . i wont be saying all these if i dont know .
i had seen with my own eyes, hear with my own ears .
i dont wanna get my eyes swollen almost every night .
i dont wanna see my dearest people crying like that .
how much i feel like dying right now .
i dont want to keep secrets myself everytime, crying all alone myself everytime .
i had enough , seriously .
i am now crying and typing all these things at the same time .
still want to say that RENEE AND QISHAN ! STAY STRONG!
wanted to do my music project at first de, but i think i cant do it now with my current mood, maybe later? see how first .
happy dayno more .
editted . i seriously need to talk to somebody that i trust alot. i cant take all this anymore . its too much for me. i had enough . i just feel like jumping down the building now . its too much . should i just wait? i dont know . theres alot of question marks in my heart . i dont know how to answer every single of it . i just cant get the right answer ... i need the beach seriously . i...... i dont want mummy to see me crying again , she will get worried if she does . just like whad meiling says: world is so fucking unfair and LIFE SUCKS !
renee: dear, dont cry already huhs .
we will be always by ur side alright .
stop thinking about all this and get urself cool down .
its nhort all your fault .
eu cant quit school . coze i need eu and eu need me . dont get yourself too stressed up huhs .
i dont wanna see eu crying over all this things and i am going to cry with eu .
ignore those things for a moment and cool down .
got anything can come talk to me .
eu wont be left out . we will always be with eu de.
stop crying . i know me and eu had been crying alot this few days .
but no use crying over all this matter .
ur mother gonna be so sad if she sees eu crying again .
i think we needed go to the beach someday and cry out loud and scream like shit .
i wanna to see the lame and funny and strong renee .
i dont wanna see this . UHKAYS !
cheer up dear !
dont be sad anymore . NO QUITTING SCHOOL coze i need eu too . :DDDDD
cheer up :DDDD
qishan: i am glad that we are back to good friends again.
at first i was having those thoughts that we might nhort be friends again..
thanks for everything . thanks for being so nice to me .
eu should also cheer up .
dont be too stressed up too .
i know eu want to score well in studies too and get into unversity .
just cheer up .
i'll be by ur side always and forever also de .
we shall never quarrel again .
try dont be too angry .
its nhort good for health de.
cheer up .
jacq: awws . jacq is such a nice friend . i love you too !
thanks for all those, and making us laugh and everything .
thanks for listening .
thanks for everything .
hope eu will get all your problem sort out too . ;D
